I am almost done with my part time job of two years. I’ve been bartending/ waitressing since August of 2012, and for the most part, I’ve enjoyed it. I love that it is a great excuse to get out of the house, and I get to converse with adults for the night. The people I work with are all amazing, and I am going to miss each and every one. It is time for me to have a job with normal hours though. It gets tough to be a good mom and wife 24/7 when I’m getting very little sleep… But as I sit here typing, I am overcome with a looming sadness that this era of my life is coming to an end in just two days. I am also overcome with an overwhelming joy that I won’t have to miss a bedtime story or a goodnight again. It’s a very bittersweet time in my life, but it Is necessary. It’s just life. Sadness along with happiness. Joy along with pain. Anxiousness along with dread. Life is a constant series of ups and downs, and the sooner we accept the turning tides, the happier we will be able to feel.
Our culture and the society we live in has shaped us into believing that we must fit into a certain “type”, and that if we don’t, we must be doing something wrong in life. There are those that are athletic, those who love to read, those who can never seem to have enough to drink, those who become parents and lose themselves in their children, those who are crafty and spend their days creating an endless list of Pinterest crafts, and the list goes on and on. But what about those of us who simply do not fit into any of those categories? Is there something wrong with us? For years I’ve been thinking that I must have a psychological disorder or that maybe I was born in the wrong decade, but as I learn more about culture, society, stereotypes, media, and the world as a whole, I am finding that maybe the problem is not me at all, but our society forcing us to believe we must conform into a certain “type” in order to fit in and be “normal”. I am extremely introverted. I quite enjoy being alone with my own thoughts, and I have never been one to open up with others and share my thoughts. I am finally busting out of the “shy” label that has been plastered on my forehead since I was a young child. So here I am, sharing my thoughts and feelings about the world, life, love, and letting go, for anyone who may be willing to listen.
Maybe I am the weird one that just doesn’t fit in, but I just don’t care anymore. I am a married to a man who loves to have fun. I am a mother of three awesome kids. I love to run and practice yoga. Hiking and stand up paddle boarding are two of my favorite things to do for fun. I am an avid reader, a not-so-professional painter, and have always dreamed of being a writer. I enjoy nights out with friends just as much as a bonfire with the family. I teach elementary reading, and now I am blogging. I can’t say whats in store for me in the future, but I do know that there is a passion in me for exploring and learning about the world, so that is the direction I am steering my life.